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Confusion

Leaves crashing, wind blowing, rain falling... my heart broken. 7 years, yes it has been 7 years since the last post. A lot has changed. I have changed, he has changed... and yet... my heart hurts. Will I ever belong somewhere? will I ever be happy the way I would like? Confusion, that is what I feel. It helps to get it out.

What is Happiness?

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Many people would say that there is no real definition for happiness. Happiness is whatever you want it to be. It may be a rainy night with a person by your side while you see the lightning rumbling high in the sky and you do not need to say a word. You are there, just in silence, looking at the dark sky and just feeling a warm and caring body next to you. Others may say happiness is knowing yourself, knowing all your weaknesses, your strengths, what you want on life, and what you have accomplished. There some people who are happy with just having a chemotherapy or radiation session and being able to eat a meal the next day. I say happiness is enjoying life. Every minute we have of life, whether we are learning, or giving, receiving and even fighting with the people we care for. That is life. Viktor Frankl wrote in his book “Man’s Search for Meaning”, that all the transitions of our existence are not meaningless. Man has the ability to make the choice to potent...
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“Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.” Steven Jobs - 1955-2011 With all sadness, to my hero, Steven Jobs, may you rest in peace, we will all miss you. You are a legend, you have changed the world and your inspiration, courage and love for life will remain in my mind forever.

Another Year Coming Up

Life happens... yes it does. Do you ever wonder why bad things happen to good people? One day you are having breakfast, talking to the people you love and next thing you know, you are ill, close to dying and then what? What about all the dreams you had made? what about all the places you did not get to see? what about making a real family of your own? or what about being closer to your bio-family and friends? Yes, life happens. Then something changes, you get a second chance and then what? it is confusing tough. Do you go back to your regular life style as it was? or do you try to find the meaning of that phase? You'll be surprise how you see everything differently. Even if you wanted to be the same, you cannot do it. Something greater has changed you forever. Your entire life shuffles in front of you like a film, like a slide show and you begin to make sense of your life... the left turns that you took when you were supposed to turn right, the short cuts you had taken wh...

Sometimes Love Hurts

There are some times when you need to sacrifice yourself for others. Yes, it happens. It is not the easiest thing to do but at the end, it might the best thing one can do. When you love someone, you want to take care of him/her, make him/her smile and happy. You want to fulfill all his or her desires and you want to make sure he or she does not suffer. However, although it all has good intentions, each of us needs to learn to feel, to handle stress, to grow up, to set him/her free. Being in a relationship is not as easy as it looks like. It does not matter what type of relationship is. The reality is that each person needs to learn about the other. It is a process where both need to learn to communicate, to respect each other, to have boundaries, to accept each other with all the little idiosyncrasies, and the most important, to be honest. Sometimes things come in the way. By that I mean that we all have a history; some people call it “baggage”. Yes, baggage does not disc...

Life is a circle

Do you ever wonder why everything seems to be moving in circles? Is it because the world is round? Or is it just a coincidence? It gets to a point where you think you have done it all. You are satisfied with your life, your accomplishments and what you have. You are at peace with yourself. You look at your life and wonder what your next adventure will be. You create new goals, you think you have it all ready and then, suddenly, one day, people that you have not seen in years show up into your life again, unexpectedly. Suddenly you have other opportunities that might not come again, new choices to make, a new whole perspective on the life you had… one small second can change the world and your life, one second, one decision, and then you are looking at a whole new world. You find yourself again wondering what your purpose is and what is to come next. What would happen if you make the wrong choice, if you take the different sliding door? Your memories are fresh now and remember...

Magical thinking for New Year

This is a new year. How many of us made new and prosperous wishes on January 1st right at midnight? and think that by a miracle yet to be found, something magical will happen so this new year we won't find any difficulties along the way? But have you ever had a year where everything was perfect? We need to have good and bad things happening so we can learn, grow and be the best we can. Every year we cry, we laugh, we love, we grieve things that we were not able to get or people that had left us. Every year we meet new people, we see new things and we make good and bad decisions. What is important for this year? No to lose hope and to believe on your self. No matter how bad the last year was, or how happy we were, we need to believe on something, or somebody. Whatever happened last year happened already and there is nothing, absolutely nothing we can do to change it. We need to focus on the present. That is the only thing that counts. We do not know the future either. But what we do...